Countless hours of replying to you, sleepless nights talking with you, and having coffee dates with you, I thought they were special to you just as they did to me. I guess I was wrong.
I don't know when it started, that unsettling feeling that something was off. I tried to ignore it. Made excuses in my head. Maybe you were just busy. Maybe you just forgot to reply. Maybe you were in a location where there was no signal. But as the days turned into weeks, I couldn’t deny it any longer. The special connection that I thought we had disappeared into thin air.
Like a tidal wave, this realization hit me. Overwhelming and devastating.
Now, all I’m left with is the painful understanding that I was mistaken. I can’t help but wonder how all of these came to be. I started questioning my worth. Am I just an easy girl that you can simply shrug it off whenever it suits you?
Maybe I was just your pastime, a convenience, or an option when it suited you. Perhaps I’m something that you just used to occupy your mind until someone came along. I can’t help but wonder what I did wrong, why I wasn’t enough for you.
I trusted you with my heart, and now it lies broken at my feet.
All I can do now is accept the truth and live with it. As hard as it may be. Maybe you never meant to hurt me, maybe this was just one of those things that happen in life, but that doesn’t make it any easier to bear.
Despite all this, I’ll hold on to the memories of the good times, the laughter, and the moments when it felt like we were the only two people in the world.
But I can’t keep pretending that I’m okay, that this doesn’t hurt, that I can just move on like nothing happened. I need to heal, to find a way to pick up the pieces and move forward, even if right now that feels impossible.
I guess I was wrong about what we had, and that’s something I’ll have to live with.
But I won’t let this define me. I’ll learn from it, grow from it, and eventually, I’ll be okay. I have to be.
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